I don’t know what season I’m in or how I’m to grow from this. My mind knows truth, but my heart is aching still. Vigor and excitement for Your love have escaped me, and I find myself unsure about where to find abiding joy.
And I realized that I don’t feel like myself because I’m changing. I don’t know myself because I’m not who I used to be. There’s dissonance. My heart is changing.
My needs are changing.
I used to think I needed consistency & routine. And maybe I still do. But I’ve settled for just whatever routine came my way, rather than intentionally creating one that fills my soul.
I need rest. I need space. I need a day for myself to feel clean and beautiful. I need to sit in the quiet.
But I also need to let go so I can adjust. My expectations of myself need to change.
I need to learn to ask for help.
I need to start cutting excess out of my life.
And I realized I was happiest when cultivating a home. So I guess this is where I'll start.
F L O W E R S | astrantia, garden rose, eucalyptus, carnation, cosmos, & anemone
Hey, sweet friend!
Thanks for entering into my mind! Thanks for discovering a bit about my heart. These thoughts were swirling in my head as I drew the illustration now available in my shop. More to come as I embark on this journey of learning about myself, exploring my dreams, and agreeing with the little nudges God places in my heart.